I can no longer stifle my feelings of hatred towards the Catholic Church

by: Seething Mom

Wed Nov 04, 2009 at 15:54:45 PM EST

I stayed up to the wee hours of the night last night watching the voting tallies come in from Maine and Washington state. And when the trend in Maine started going the wrong way for marriage equality, I couldn't help but feel a complete sense of devastation and loss (and I can only imagine how those whose dignity and rights were stripped from them felt).

But today? Different story. I am enraged. I am horrified. And I am filled with an intense hatred for the evil that eminated from the Catholic Church when it declared an all-out war on an already demonized and oppressed minority. And every ounce of my rage and hatred is pointed at the Catholic Church even though there were others involved in this campaign of hate as well. For me, the "others" in this war were acting true to form, but watching the Catholic Church's involvement was the final realization that it is every bit as evil as the other religious frauds preaching hatred and bigotry in the name of God.

I wish I could say that I will get over it, but I will not. This wound is deep and unhealable. This is the only church I had ever known and the betrayal is just too enormous. There is absolutely no forgiveness in my heart, there is only an intense feeling of revulsion for what this Church has done. The fact that they could use their pulpit, their collection baskets, and t.v. ads to declare my gay son a threat to other people's children while conveniently forgetting the decades they spent hiding and protecting those within their ranks who truly did destroy so many children's lives is simply pure evil.

I walked away from the Church a long time ago. And I have been at peace with that decision for years. The Church's behavior in Maine only confirms for me what I have already known for years - they hate my gay son. I can live with my decision to walk away, but can they live with what they have done?